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"We knew the girls were really women in disguise, that they understood love, and even death, and that our job was merely to create the noise that seemed to fascinate them." - The Virgin Suicides
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Denise Chang, Illegal eighteen, currently rocking and rolling around, trying to find my own identity. Loves Chelsea, Justin Timberlake and the finer things in life (; Formspring Twitter Tumblr Facebook
#62 Bare necessities of life

Wow, hey.

Like how my previous few posts began, it's been awhile since I've updated. Truth be told, it wasn't that I didn't have time, or had nothing to say, I just never got down to writing down the details, sometimes just plain lazy to bother or just lacking inspiration to put my thoughts into words.

Things have been insane, I went through a couple of rough patches, but I pulled through, and came out stronger. But before this post becomes a cliche (like everything else is), I think I'll just touch on a few things that have been happening.

I'm in the midst of my finals, with 3 out of 5 papers done and never to be thought of again (till that one week before Christmas when they release my results). I'm not even thinking about how badly I'm going to fail my Spec Maths paper, or the crap that I crapped out for my English paper. On a lighter note however, Maths was pretty good, and I'm quite optimistic about Chemistry tomorrow. Rest assured that this nightmare will all be over on Friday (;

I've been going out a lot too. Scored myself free tickets to Adam Lambert, owe mum about RM200+ for my Paramore ROCKZONE tickets which was totally worth it. Was at Changkat with Jocelyn & Josh, which turned out pretty bad, won't go into details. Skipped out on Mutant Mayhem, as much as I regret now as it was the weekend before my finals (joy). Besides a few outings here and there, things have been good.

Of course, not forgetting the amount of time I have been spending in the college library, studying. No, scratch that, talking, getting to know more people and lazing around, more like. It's funny how the number of people I get to know in the last few weeks of college is the number of people I got to know throughout the duration of my course multiplied by three. Every guy I checked out, every girl I had a bad first impression on, are now people I spend daily musings with. I can't help but sit in the library and end up waving or having empty talk with one person or another every few minutes.

And of course, a small heartbreak with a certain guy. It wasn't a big deal. I knew what I wanted from the relationship, and he didn't, so we ended things, although we were only going out for a week, if you consider short lunches and rides home as 'dating'. We didn't catch a movie together, go for dinner or anything of the sort so, meh. Currently, my heart is in it's usual state of mixed emotions, uncertainty, overreaction and self-induced pain, with another certain boy who has my heart racing every time I think of him. Words come out weird, I don't act myself, and everything I do seems to push us further apart. Again, I know what I want, and I want nothing less. So till then, heart racing, weird words.

I think I'll end my post for the day month here. Hopefully it doesn't take me another day-before-exam-boredom to post another post. But till then, au revoir lovelies!

Currently plugged into: Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars

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